What's the Use?

There are days when I wonder why I’m even trying to save up for this surgery.  It isn’t that I don’t want to have it--the problem is that it’s so freaking expensive.  I’m not rolling in the money.  I have actually only recently been able to feel confident in making ends meet.  Surgery will cost about $16,000.  How the hell do I come up with $16,000???  So, okay my thought was to start saving.  That’s a great idea, right?

Except it hasn’t even started happening yet.  My husband is waiting for his promotion, which will help tremendously.  But it still doesn’t seem reachable--not for the foreseeable future.  I feel like I can put a decent amount aside for savings (as long as we can manage to stick to a food budget!), however I really believe that there are more important things for the money to go towards.  First of all, we desperately need an emergency fund.  We only have one vehicle and when it breaks down it can be devastating for us.  So we also need a second car.  If we save like crazy then we might be able to buy a car by Christmas--unless we have an emergency.

My original hope was to be able to have the surgery during one of my two breaks in the spring.  That way I won’t have to miss too much work.  But that won’t happen if I can’t save up more than my budget allows.  So now we’re talking Christmas of 2015 for the surgery.

There are still a couple of possibilities which would help with this.  We may get a large Christmas gift from hubby’s family.  And with my husband’s (hopefully!) new job, he may have an opportunity to work a lot of overtime.  If those things both happen, then spring may still be on the table.

So I won’t give up.  Not yet.  But I will also start preparing myself that it could be another year or two before this surgery happens.  I’m trying to learn patience, but this will certainly be a test for me.