Okay so I've been on this kind of on again, off again kick since Christmas. I've gained back a good bit of what I had lost, which really sucks. Of course, that's me reverting back to old habits when I've been off. A major fear I have is what will happen once I lose the weight. How will I possibly maintain the weight loss? It's hard to do the right thing. But in the end, this is important to me. I know I want to do this and I know I need to make it a priority or it's never going to happen. There is no such thing as the "right time" or even a good time to start. It's about deciding that this is what I want and what I need. I've also decided that I need a more specific goal.
So...
Yesterday was Day 1 of Ideal Protein take two! My morning weigh-in was 232.7. The day went well and I had no problems. Of course this is day two, which is always the worst! I have been dealing with headaches so far, and even a little bit of upset stomach.
When I decided to start again, I knew I needed to address a few issues. Planning. I think one of my biggest problems is when I am too tired or stressed to make food. So I decided that I had to have a plan. I have committed to cooking my meals for the week in advance. I did this yesterday, and it ate up a good percentage of my saturday. I cooked about 5-6 meals altogether, freezing several of them. I know we will eat at a restaurant at least once or twice this week so we should be good. I also made all my jellos and puddings for the week. We have a ton of little containers in the fridge--all ready to go! I really, really think this will help me survive.
The other decision I made is that I am doing this. Totally doing this. Even though I have two weddings and a trip coming up in the next two months, this is my priority. This is more important than eating cake or McDonalds. My most important goal is to get below 200 pounds. And it needs to happen by July. I know that if I don't set a specific and attainable goal, then it becomes way too easy to let myself fall on my face. Or stuff my face. So there it is. Written down and decided. I know I can do this. I lost a little over 30 pounds in three months. I should be able to lose 33 pounds in three and a half months! So that's my goal.
I will also start walking daily--especially during the week. I don't have to drive anywhere or do anything during my lunch time at work, so instead I will go for a short walk.
So there you have it. I am determined to make this year count. I will turn 40 in December, and I really want to enter my 40s feeling great about myself.
