Negative Self-Talk

I do a lot of negative self-talk, especially about food.  I've started tracking some of my thoughts and feelings when I want food.  My self-talk can be pretty outrageous.  I need to recognize that I'm doing this to myself.  I know these thoughts are not reality.  But they feel true.  And so I choose to believe them.  Why am I so frightened of the truth?  I guess if I don't risk anything real, then I can't lose.  Which is totally bullshit, because life is loss.  I lose all the time.  And sometimes I win.  Despite myself.

Here are some of the falsehoods I've been telling myself:

• I'm so fat, it's not like eating this would make a difference
• I saved the best part of the meal for last, so now I have to keep eating so I can have the best part
• No one cares if I eat this
• I should be able to eat if I want to
• I need to eat something now, even though I'm not hungry, because I might miss my chance to eat
• I won't feel satisfied if I don't eat all of it

And those were just the worst offenders from one day of tracking.  I need to really start allowing myself to believe good things about myself.  I need to believe that I'm worthy of goodness.  And I need to believe that it's okay to let in the good and the bad--it's okay to live.  I know all this.  I can see all this rationally.  I'm at a loss as to how to actually move forward.