I can be an idiot sometimes. I decided that the grass needed to be mowed--it's been needing it for several days to be honest--and I know my husband doesn't have time to do it today. I had my son do half of the front yard for me. Why not the entire yard? Because I hate making anyone do anything. I hate it because I usually ask very nicely to please do _____ when you can. And it doesn't get done. And then I ask multiple times with a deadline. Still doesn't get done. I've tried, more recently, to just tell them to do it. And I've learned that if I don't say "do it now," then it won't get done until I do. So when I told him to do half the yard, I felt I was being fair and I was being firm that he had to do that half.
Of course I did the other half. It was exhausting. It really wasn't much yard. And I like our mower--it works pretty easily. I was so glad when I was done. And I kind of stumbled my way back in the house. My heart was absolutely pounding and I was gasping for breath. I was so hot and I just desperately wanted my heart to slow down. I can be such an idiot sometimes.
I can't keep doing this to myself.
1. I need to ask for help--and then be firm. I am NOT Superwoman. I cannot do everything. I need to delegate and let it go.
2. I need to lose the weight and get into some semblance of shape. I feel miserable, and I want more out of my life than this.
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