Getting back to me

So I have had a rough couple of weeks.  I've slacked off on my journaling and on celebrating my little victories.  I haven't blogged much.  I've been in semi-survival mode and have returned to unhealthy coping mechanisms.  But I'm okay.  I'm recovering.  And I feel like I may even be coming out better on the other side.  I've been more honest with myself through this process.  And it is a process.  I won't wake up one morning and everything be just perfect.  I am working towards the me I know I am inside.  And I have to allow that to happen.  I have to allow myself to make mistakes and to fall backwards.  I have to believe that I can continue to pick myself back up.

I know I have so much more work to do.  And that's okay.  I give myself permission to take things slowly.  And I recognize that I am trying, and that this journey is important to me.  I am important to me.

I will begin journaling again.  I was going to say that I will start tomorrow, but forget that--I am starting this evening.  I will journal again.  I will make art.  I will sing and listen to music.  And I will begin to do the things for myself that are important to me.  I will begin to see the good again.

So I will start with me...

And let me say that I suppose this is my small victory :)