So I've been attending an Artist's Way workshop at the local library. We had our second official meeting last week. It went okay. I have been finding that I am resistant to chapters two and three.
I have just really found the text to be very negative about people in general. The author talks about unblocked artists trying to deliberately sabotage you. I understand that sometimes people around us do stop us from things, but I think more honestly it is about their fear and not a malicious sabotage.
I am also not sure about the group setting. I find small groups to be pretty awkward. You always have one person who over-shares and monopolizes the group's time. For the most part my group is okay. I don't mind them, but one of the ladies is often very negative. I know she needs an outlet for that, but it's hard for me to make myself go and listen to an hour of it. I've been working so hard to get myself in a more positive place, and I don't like to deal with the negativity of others right now. I hope that isn't too harsh of me. I want to be kind and understanding, as well as be mindful of my empathy. But I also don't want to be dragged down. I want to stay positive and I want to enjoy my time there. I don't want to feel like it's a chore.
I'm going to stick with it--for at least the first four weeks. I hope I can go the entire twelve weeks, but that's a big commitment. We shall see.
In the meantime, I've been faithfully doing my morning pages. It's not always easy to write three full pages, but I'm making it work. I have found a lot of helpfulness by writing my thoughts. If nothing else comes from the book and the workshop, that's one practice I hope to continue!
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